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"Of course I forgive you," he answered. "Im very sorry for you. But Bonaparte wasnt going to marry you. He was going to marry a rich girl in Marseilles. Madame Tallien told me so. The rich girl could only offer him money. But Bonaparte wants power; and Barrass woman can help him to get it. You couldnt do that."
"I want to get out, please." I begged. "I want to get out!"
"Dear God!" I thought. "How difficult this man is! He really does want to marry me. What can I say?"
"Please think about it, Desirre. Ive always wanted a wife and a child. But a soldiers life hasnt given me the chance. I can九_九_藏_书_网t follow the usual customs before I ask you to marry me. I have to decide very quickly. And now Ive decided."
The voice answered: "No, Mademoiselle desirre. You asked me to take you into Madame Talliens house. Now you must stay with me till we reach your home."
I shook my head. "Its not possible, general. Really it isnt. Surely you can see the reason? Im not too young for you, but Im much too small."
"Of course. I was forgiving that," he said kindly. "where do you live?"
I gave him the address, and he told the driver. We werent far from the place.
I tried hard to free myself from that hand. I pu99lib•netlled and kicked and screamed. But a quiet voice was saying: "dont be afraid. Desiree. Come with me. Here is my carriage."
"Because youre a good little girl. You dont understand how great ladies behave. You arent like that fair-haired woman on the sofa, that Josephine. Youre honest and sweet. I like you, and --- " his voice suddenly changed. "--- and I want to marry you myself!"
"Youre a brave girl," he replied. "When may I come and hear your answer? The day after tomorrow?"
He was much stronger than me.. He pushed me into the carriage. Then he said to the driver.
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I remembered another went night, when another general had put his cloak around me. But now I was too tired to worry any more. He pulled me closer to him, and my head rested on his arm.
But the general shouted even louder: "Drive on at once!" then he turned to me and said: "Please forgive me. Im not used to girls like you. Ive never asked anyone else to be my wife, and I really would like to marry you. Please listen, and dont cry."
"I behaved very badly at Madame Talliens house," I said. "Please forgive me. But General Bonaparte had promised to marry me." Then I started to cr九*九*藏*书*网y again.
"Good night," I said. "and thank you for everything. Dont worry about me, I shant go back to the river."
"Im going to be sixteen soon," I answered. "But Im tired. I want to go home."
"How do you know?" I asked him.
We had reached the house. He opened the carriage door, and he helped me to get out.
His voice was so gentle that I had to listen. "My father was a poor man." He said. "I joined the army when I was only fifteen. I was an ordinary soldier then. After the revolution I become an officer. Now Im a general. But perhaps Im too old for you? Im thirty-one."
I rushed into the house an九九藏书d shut the door behind me. But I couldnt sleep. I shall never sleep again. So Im sitting at the kitchen table and Im writing my diary. The day after tomorrow this man Bernadotte will come. I dont know where I shall be. But I shant be here.
I was cold and wet and afraid. I was crying. My body was shaking. But a big warm hand came towards me and held my hand.
"Youre as cruel as Napoleon," I said. "Im not going any further." And I shouted: "Driver! Stop!"
"Some generals are different," he said. And he put his cloak round my shoulder.
"Are you General Bernadotte? " I asked. "I hate generals. They have no hearts."