not to be paranoid

pretentious-sounding

obsessing about

Am going to get weighed.

hydroelectric body-generated power

one must not live ones life through men but must be complete in oneself as a woman of substance.

Am stood up

Im going to have give tonight a miss

answerphone light was flashing

On the way to the bathroom, to complete final farming touches

with a full beard and handlebar moustache on each shin, Dennis Healey eyebrows, face a graveyard of dead skin cells, spots erupting, long curly fingernails like Struwelpeter, blind as bat and stupid runt of species as no contact lenses, flabby body flobbering around

what I would be like if left to revert to nature

The whole performance is so highly tuned you only need to neglect it for a few days for the whole thing to go to seed.

feet pumiced, skin exfoliated and moisturized, spots cleansed, roots dyed, eyelashes tinted, nails filed, cellulite massaged, stomach muscles exercised.

永远别忘记，会有两种感情——恐惧和欲望，使你落入一生中最大的陷讲，如果你让它们来控制自己的思想，你的一生就会生活在恐惧中，从不探求你的梦想，这是残酷的。为钱工作，以为钱能买来快乐，这也是残酷的。半夜醒来想着许多的账单要付是一种可怕的生活方式，以工资的高低来安排生活不是真正的生活。这些都很残酷，而我希望你们能避开这些陷饼，如果可能的话，别让这些问题在你们身上发生，别让钱支配你们的生活。”